Why, oh why, do I lack faith in God? It cannot be explained. There is no excuse. I don’t know the reason. I just know that I still worry, I still let anxiety get to me. Let me explain…
This last week brought a number of stresses/to-do’s to my life. As you may know, we are headed up to Nampa, ID to do a 2-week try-out with MAF on January 14th. There is a bunch of paperwork that needed to be completed. Now, our whole family has to get comprehensive physicals before we can try-out with MAF because they need to know that there aren’t any medical red flags that would hinder our living in a third world country. I also need to get some more flight time in before the try-out so that I can perform to the best of my abilities during the try-out. I tried to fly with an individual who has access to a plane, but the weather over Christmas was too poor and now the plane is up for an annual inspection! In addition to this, we are looking for a place to live, trying to nail down a job, and trying to live life! Whew…
So, I had a bit of stress and was feeling overwhelmed. It is probably understandable why I was so stressed out and anxious. But, the truth is that this a problem in my thinking not an understandable fact of life!
I have seen a trailer for a movie called, “After Earth.” In this movie, set to come out later this year, Will Smith and and his son crash land on a planet, which turns out to be Earth, and they face a number of dangers. At the end of the trailer, Will Smith tells his son, “You have to remember, fear is not real. It is a product of the thoughts you create. Don’t misunderstand me. Danger is very real. But fear is a choice.”
This seems to resonate with me as I think about worry. Worry is not real unless I make it real. There are going to be hard situations in life and stressful times, but we have the choice! We can wallow in worry and be held captive by anxiety, or we can choose to believe that God is who He says He is and He will do what He says He will do!
I am called to take every thought captive and make it obedient to Christ. (II Cor 10:5) Do I believe the lie or live by faith?
I wish I could speak for every day, but today I will walk by faith!